Weary eyes nod off at the lunch table; toddler demanding and infant conducting a continual test of vocal cords.
Dishes tower high, laundry baskets overflow, two weeks and a half left in the month and not enough money to feed a bird, let alone a family of four, too many things to do. . . and Husband comes home late from work. . .again.
Then, the vise twists once more and I snap under pressure.
and she. . . that girl with they messy hair all in her face, a band-aid on her chin and a stuffed rat in arm.
This gift from God. . . she is Jesus to me in this moment. She looks at me with her big brown eyes and furrowed brow.
“Mommy, you have a grumpy heart”. And that grumpy heart of mine sank down to my toes.
Why is it so easy to walk thru life without a hint of joy? Hope? Trust?
Why does weakness cast such a shadow of doubt in this weary heart of mine? Doesn’t he say:
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”?
Self reliance steals the rest that is found in GOD reliance.
I held that girl tight, wept and prayed for a changed heart. “Let me be weak Lord, and trust that you can do so much more in my
weakness than in my self reliance.”
Therefore [let us] boast all the more gladly about [our] weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may dwell in [us].
2 Corinthains 2:19